“Jesus gave me a Brent” Faithful is He that calleth you that also will do it…

I wish I had an explanation to why I was so stressed out.  It seemed the season would never end.  I fought God every which way because I could only see “my plan” that never came to fruition.  He was there saying, “If she would just wait and see what I have for her she would understand why I’m not giving her what she thinks she wants.”

If you are interested these are back story blogs, but the story continues below 🙂 :
If you got what you prayed for…

Thankful I didn’t get what I wanted the most.

“Faithful is He that calleth you” to Colorado

When you turn down your dream opportunity … Life updates…

Not always thunder and lightning…

I had my desire coming to pass.  I had it.  My desire, that came out of nowhere, was about to happen: I was going to move to Colorado.  I was cleaning out my things at home… I was telling everyone I was going to move (eventually), and I was on my way to a change in my life.  ‘Opportunity was knocking on my door’…

“And suddenly”

I’ve never been called to be a teacher.  I cannot imagine being one and that has to be one of the toughest jobs there is.  I didn’t go to school or get a degree in anything.  I am not “qualified” to teach.

What God has taught me is love. He’s taught me how to be a friend.  I’ve been stressed and seen despair and learned I never want anyone to experience those things and can never let anyone feel that way if I can help it.  I’ve learned how to never let anyone give up.  I was given the most stubborn human beings to take care of so I’ve learned boundaries and to not put up with anything.  (My family used to call me Nurse Ratchett…)  I’ve learned to ‘stay’.

I’ve learned so many things and my heart has been restored and put back together… and the gift God wrapped up for me is in this guy:

Whether or not one day God gives me my own family I have no idea.  But, I have experienced a whole new level of what my heart is capable of with spending time with this guy.  He’s the warmest, most genuine person in the world.  He is never cruel and so, so sweet.  You can’t help but love him.  He’s so fun loving and hilarious.  He doesn’t worry about anything and loves the simplest things.  He only makes sure to tell you over AND OVER his events in the future.  I will tell him, “Let’s focus on today.  You don’t need to worry about that right now.  Look at what is happening today.” to which God said, ‘Exactly.  That’s you and me.’ ha

“Don’t worry about tomorrow.  Today’s evil are sufficient thereof.”

I’ve been a caregiver my whole life that I had declared “I’m not taking care of anyone else as long a I live.”  I learned to be content in this single season (WHEW!  What a journey!)  I would go to work in the morning and was given the gift of time to do whatever.  I didn’t need to be home.  I didn’t need to do for others.  I was free.  One of the blogs above goes into detail, but I’ve known Brent 5 years and when his mom asked if I wanted to work with him I didn’t hesitate on “yes”.  It was the quickest decision I ever made in my life.

I cannot explain what has happened to my heart, but God knew I needed a Brent.  I get to love someone the exact way my heart was designed to love someone.  He is my buddy and he makes me lose my mind.  I have a plan for him in a few months that I won’t share yet , but he makes you insane in a sense that you will do anything even fly to the moon.  haha

I don’t know how I lived before???

I was not given “my desires”, but God gave me a way to use them and an outlet to use what He gave me.  His plans are better.  His thoughts and ways are higher.

People ask if I still plan on moving to Colorado.  YES!

But, God has made it to where the only way I would stay is happening in real time.  I had no reason to stay here… ‘and suddenly’.  God literally blocked Colorado and gave me the peace to stay.  When it is time to go He will knock at my heart again.  I can only laugh because it was such an obvious God re-route of my life that I cannot even second guess my decision.

(I’ve also learned if I am ever a mom I will be the most annoying, “extra” mom, but more on that later… ha!)

You don’t have to understand His ways.  He doesn’t ask us to.  He just asks us to be obedient.

Brent will say, “Jesus gave me you.” to which I always reply, “Jesus gave me a Brent.”

What else could you ever want?

“He will restore the years the locusts ate.”

God doesn’t call the qualified.  He qualifies the called.
He makes a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert.